Assalammualaikum and hi everyone. It's been a long time I'm not posting in my blog. I really wanted my blog to keep updated so this is the right time.
Thanks for reading and I hope you guys are doing well for whatever you did before, now and the future. Actually, I want to confess and share of what I feel. Yes, it's true I'm talking about my heart.
For the past 27 days ago, I've been approached by a guy, a very nice guy which I think it must be something inside him as the way he approached me...it really looks different. He knew me as we were participated in one competition which was held in his university. He really friendly and open minded as for the first day we've chatting..he talked a lot about his experiences and we shared some information between us. I don't know why I was too easy to share my information with him. It maybe because I thought he is different. Days by days we've knowing each other and the meantime my exam study week started. So we slow down our chat and gave some spaces for each of us for studying.
We have been acquaintance for just a few days only, as I mentioned before, I can feel some different with him and I've been fallen in love with him just a few days. This is really true and absurd. I've no idea why I am so easy to fall in love with someone which I've never meet him as person before as he the only one who know and meet me. Like I'm said, we were participated in a competition, and during that, he tried to approach me, find and follow me in Instagram and also comment in a photo of mine. But at one day, which would be his favourite date and number, he messages and approached me in Instagram and I replied it! It's really nice to get to know with him, he asked me a lot basic things which I think never been expected to be asked by someone including my ex. In fact, my ex never asked me those basic questions like he did. Slowly, he tried to win my heart and I fell on it. You, knowing you was one of the greatest memory I've ever had.
Day by day, and it's near to third week, we rarely chatting, messaging each other. I've been started to overthink what he does as he don't let me know as well. My overthinking started to go more further and further as I thought he might had met someone else, yeah, I know I am not a perfect woman, the ideal girl just like the normal guys supposed to wish as well. I started to show my bad attitude, I've accused him do this and that without asking him at all.
I've been that way because he really late replying my messages and I was wondering what he did actually. If he was doing something else, just let me know but he didn't. So I've been started to overthink because I'm really scared if he lied to me. I really disliked those who really late replying my messages, online but not open my chat, and the worst is bluetick my chats!
You might know what happened to me if you guys ever read my past post before, the way I've been cheated by my first love...in a relationship with a liar..so I'm scared if he did this to me too. If he told me what he is doing maybe I'll be less thinking but I realized we're still in "special friend" state.
But now he's really mad at me, it's because I've done something that really made him angry at me, I told him I want to leave him, accused him for doing something that he might not did. I know I am wrong and I am really really sorry about that.
You...if you read this, I wanted to say I'm very regret for what I've been did yesterday, I know you are hurt, angry at me, same goes to me, hurt like you. But at least please reply my messages. Please let me know if you want to stay or not. At least please let me know that so that I'm not clueless and can keep move on and close my heart to anyone else.
I want you to know, you are the best and nice guy I've ever been met before, and I don't want to lose a nice guy like you. Please reply my messages and let me fix this thing out. I will start to build trust on you and reduce my overthinking towards you. If you wish you don't want to stay with me, I will accept that and start to move on and go out from your life too. But I really hope you will stay, as the promises you did before, those hoping that you build on me that make me fall for you. I know you are angry, too mad of me, but at least...please reply my messages, give me a chance to sort this things out. I am really looking forward for your quick reply because I miss you a lot.